I like being emotionally dependent on others. I can’t figure out if this makes me weaker or stronger. But a lot of people have told me that this would hurt me eventually because nothing lasts forever.
I love being taken care of by others.
I love it when people make me feel or tell me that I am important to them. And sometimes I feel I don’t this to them myself.
I am beginning to realize that I am really bad at designating work to people. Especially the work I care about. I have the constant feeling they'll screw it up or not do it the way I think is right. This actually makes me a big hypocrite because I like having the freedom to judge how I want to go about things when I am given a task.
I lose my cool a lot under stress and it does come back and bite me in the face or it just leaves me feeling guilty later.
My patience is a function of my level of attachment to the situation
I hate the way our college authorities function. I hate how they can't even act like they care. And here I thought they were our guardians while we were away from our parents. There will be another post about that later. First I need to figure out if bashing the authorities on my blog can get me into any sort of trouble.
Random: I saw an image on “Love” saying- "50 years...his name is still hers...” on someone's blog today and it just reminded me of my parents so much. I can go on and on about how much I LOVE what they have for each other. But that is again reserved for another post. I remember having this discussion with mum about wives taking their husband's surnames and how it’s gradually reducing nowadays. She found the whole thing very sad and she said – “even though it comes across as something trivial to people, taking on your husband's name gives you feeling of being connected forever, of belonging... Something like... I don’t know how to put it correctly but when I said "I am Mrs.Prakash" for the first time, I felt like I belonged with your dad..." Every time I think love is a fucked up concept, I just think of my parents and it changes :)
i feel overloaded on thoughts..work..studies..everything... so I'm gonna do a Doodie inspired random blurb thing:
1. Astute 2. Cold Coffee- kickass stuff! 3. People who like/look forward to/function normally during exam time should be publically assaulted. Yes! I am THAT spiteful! 4. People wouldn't find people AWESOME, if there were no A**holes in this world. 5. I dont remember heath ledger's real face. But his joker face haunts me all the time. 6. I can't stop writing. 7. I REALLY need to finish this chapter. 8. I could do with a haircut but i just love that my hair are SO long now. 9. I have DoSM OCD. Dont ask :| 10. MUN Jokes: (MUN stands for Model United Nations)
Most Important Issue: HuMUN rights
An Indian MUN would be called a MUNdal
Our lives are huMUNgous messes
Please COME to C-MUN.
MUNch should be the Snack Partners of our BITS-MUN.
( Visit www.bits-quark.org for details of BITS-MUN) Hoo Boy i am publicising i am on my blog! I am a true Publicity person :D
MUN Delagates like the "accio" harry potter charm because its a sum-MUN-ing charm
I could go on and on but i MUNst stop..( BAD one i know..the others were GREAT!! I AM AWESOME AT THIS! * waits for applause*)
11. Business Cards are cool! 12. Time to go! 13. and again.. Salaam Mumbai!
Here I am busting my ass off studying for a TWO credit useless course most of which is stuff we did in school/JEE prep so i KNOW that EVERYONE here has a breathed, eaten and slept all of it for two years. I haven't done that. So.. basically i am f***ed (i dont want my blog to get banned)
Ever since it was mentioned in a common room discussion while watching the news on Mumbai..I can't stop thinking about how closely the situation resembled that in the movie "The Dark Knight"..Open firing, grenades, fires, bazookas, hostages, hijacking, blasts..
The joker's voice is SCREAMING through my head-"Introduce a little anarchy!!" In my head i am replaying the dialogue between batman and joker when the joker is hanging from the edge of the window...i CANT stop thinking!!
I can't stop thinking of how SO EASILY one of the MAIN symbols of Mumbai was up in flames.. I wonder if people are always gonna stay afraid of walking freely on the streets of India..
I salute the KNIGHTS of Mumbai.. The citizens, the army, the air force, the NSG commandos and the Police...WHO said superheroes don't exist..
Maybe it’s because I have been watching scrubs season 5 and 6 where everyone seems to be getting pregnant, maybe it’s because the topic randomly came up in a discussion with my chick friend yesterday or maybe it’s because I heard the bestest news that my super swell buddy's real sis is pregnant.. But the topic of babies has been hovering in my head since yesterday...
As u can see this has the makings of an extremely girly post but I really hope the guys read it too because most guys adore babies even though they mostly won’t admit it. Although some do keep referring to babies they see around as the cutest things ever :P
When u think babies.. You think of the typical stuff- cute, cuddly, baby smell, toys, baby cries and cackles, their first walk/word/sentence... etc etc...
It’s true… Babies are AMAZING! But for most people who have them it’s one of the most life changing things that EVER happens to them. Babies change everything. They are small but they bring with them great responsibility. You have to leave behind the life you had so that it can revolve around the single most precious thing that you possess. Most successful women deprive themselves from the joys of raising a child for this very reason. It takes a lot of time, energy and stress (both physical and mental) to ensure that the tiny little thing says healthy and safe.
Women go through post-partum depression because the responsibility is just too huge for them to handle especially if they do not have a good support-system from their families. The baby becomes a burden to her life and they start hating themselves for thinking this way.
But I quote my Mom here-“People who keep postponing having a baby or who don’t want to have a baby because their life is just too great the way it is, are the BIGGEST idiots that exist on the face of the earth. It is one of the most challenging phases of a person’s life, but NOTHING and I mean NOTHING gives you more happiness and satisfaction than devoting a major section in bringing up your child.” At one point or another EVERY girl gets the picture in her head where she is the mother of a child with a man who loves her and cares about her. Or even being a mother to a child who could not be brought up by his biological parents.
Also, there’s always the pressure of being a good parent especially if you think you lack a maternal or paternal instinct. There’s the pressure of ensuring your child loves and respects you and values what you to say to him/her. Hoping that you will learn from the mistakes your parents made with you and you will tackle situations better than they did. All in all, the idea of having a child is mind numbingly scary, but eventually, the entire thing is totally worth it. Especially because you share this joy with the person you love and share your life with.
I don’t know how far I got with this post. I have a feeling I basically kept beating around the bush. Honestly, there are so many things related to this topic that can be talked about here but I’ll just leave you with this much.
As a teenager, it is too early to think so much about this topic but the truth is- you WILL have to think about it SOME day so choosing a random day like today to give it a little thought is not that bad an idea.
"Little by little We gave you everything You ever dreamed of Little by little The wheels of your life Have slowly fallen off Little by little You had to give it all in all your life And all the time I just ask myself why You're really here" -Courtesy Noel Gallagher (OASIS)
This post is going to be a long one. I have too much to say today :-) I had been sitting at home for a week. When I mean “at home”, I mean I literally hadn’t stepped out of the main door of my house except when I visited the doctor’s clinic. Even walking around the house had become a tiring activity and food was being consumed because it was essential for the medicines. ( Eating Less is a huge deal for me… Those who know me, know HOW MUCH I eat :P’’ ) Now that I was recovering and feeling better, my mum coming up to me in the morning and promising me to take me to a movie in the evening seemed really amazing. So I booked a ticket for watching “Jaane tu..Ya Jaane Na” for myself and two tickets for my parents who decided to watch “Thoda Pyar Thoda Magic” (God save them) The idea of watching a movie about a group of great friends alone seemed a bit weird but I just did not want to delay watching the movie which starred the cute Imran Khan whom I’d been drooling at for days. (Yes he’s cute.. He’s cute and I’m NOT arguing about it with ANYONE!! I screamed at his first shot in the movie and everyone around me stared at me :-l )
To simply put it- The movie is Awesome :-)
Its got the whole package – its HILLARIOUS, Fresh, Emotional, Cute, Well Made, Realistic yet “Filmy” and most of all the movie is about great Chemistry. Be it the chemistry between the Mother and the Son, between two best friends(especially when they look at each other while dancing with different people) or between two Goons who like picking up chicks in bars and getting into Brawls. You know the story of the movie as soon as it starts, it’s a typical romantic comedy kind of story, but you can’t help but enjoy it, laugh and cry with it. I believe that if a Hindi movie can make you laugh, then is a Brilliant movie. This was one of them, I was sitting in a Jam-Packed theatre where I could hear laughter, snorts and giggles around me at frequent intervals. The movie is not “Intelligent” “Cinema”. Its simple and spontaneous. Its shows friendship exactly the way it is- Stupid nicknames, Protectiveness, Jealousy, endless amounts of Time Pass, stupid and serious fights etc… The first song of the movie- “Kabhi Kabhi Aditi” is beautifully enacted. When I say “enacted”, I mean it. The words of the song have been shown through cute gestures, just the kind of stuff a girl would dream her friend would do for her to put a smile on her face.
There are tiny little things in the movie like -a guy doing shots of Coca-Cola at a bar - the friends doing a chicken-dance on their college farewell party -the guy doing Ash's Crazy Kiya Re step in the dance and the girl flicking fake money on him -a Gujju guy wearing bling-bling neck-chains -physical fights between a brother and sister -waiting for your friend to call at night -the girl crying when she suddenly realizes college is over for good -rich kids not studying/working and pursuing their passions like painting and film-making - the Extremely Girly girlfriend who does her “Hot” version of the “Pappu” dance -typical pain- in-the-ass policemen who understand the language of either bribes or MLAs - a drunk boyfriend hitting his girlfriend and deserting her in a parking lot
etc… that make you say- “This feels so real…”
and then there are things like -a dead man talking from his portrait to his wife -men moving around on horses -The acts to become a true Rajput from Ranjhore -Two good looking Best Friends feeling NO ATTRACTION at ALL for each other at ALL throughout their college years
etc… that make you say- “Yeah ok… IT’S A movie…”
Situations like over-protectiveness for your friend are shown excellently when the girl gets into fights with the people who say ANYTHING against her best friend. Situations like Jealousy too where the girl finds it extremely pissing off that her best friend is constantly with his girl friend and has no time for her. Or… How the guy looses it when he sees his best friend being kissed by another guy. All this aside.. The movie WINS big time because: 1.its stupidly funny ALL THE TIME, even when there is serious stuff being dealt with ( you can make a straight face at the Jokes if you are stuck up about disliking bollywood movies or you can just laugh and have fun).. I mean..serious instances such as getting arrested and being locked up in Jail,and a policeman speaking on a walkie-talkie also seem fun.
2. because of its excellent Casting and Characterization. Be it veteran actors like Naseeruddin Shah and Paresh Rawal or new comers like Genelia (seems to be a sweet soft girl in real life but is very believable as a tough, violent and egoistic girl) or Imran Khan(who is excellent as the funny and nice Jai and makes your heart melt when he cries on his mum’s shoulder)– the Cast is the invisible strength of the movie.
The Music of the movie isn't THAT amazing but its Rehman so it is pretty damn good..
The Title track- "Tu Bole main Bolu..Jaane tu ya Jaane naa" sounds a bit like You Say I Say(the potato..potaahto song)
"Pappu cant dance" is great fun to watch in the movie and will be LOVED by people who like to dance :D
and "Kahin to" is a typical bittersweet romantic ballad which sounds FUCKING brilliant.
More than the music, its the LYRICS of each song that deserve a special mention.
As you can see, I’m on such a high after watching the movie that I can’t stop talkin about it. ( This may also have something to do with the fact that I'm so jobless :P ) So I’ll finally shut up now and ask you to GO AND WATCH THE MOVIE if you haven't!! (And do NOT kill me if YOU don’t like it)